This story is a warning for girls who are obsessed with the idea of losing weight, for those who are constantly on a diet and do not think it possible to afford even a couple of extra calories. This is the confession I want to share with you, readers of Alimero.
How it all began
Thoughts that I came to me full in 14 years. In those days, girls walked in winter in thick gamachs – the only thing that shops and markets then offered. Looking at my legs in the mirror, seeming to be rather plump in thick pants, I decided to lose some weight.
Immediately I will clarify that at that age I weighed no more than my other classmates, besides I was engaged in dancing and volleyball.
The years went by, I grew up. I finished school, went to another city and went to university. All this time was taking place against the background of the fact that I occasionally tried not to eat, did not eat after 8 pm.
Like any other pretty student girl, I got fans. It was necessary for this to happen that I began to meet with a lover of skinny. He warmed my desire to be slimmer even more, although I already weighed about 48 kg with a height of 164 centimeters.
So, I finally hooked on losing weight. Spitting on all the diets that are described in the books, I made my plan, which began to work right away.
I stopped eating after 6 pm. I really did not eat crumbs in the evening, nor did I allow myself any apples or kefir.
I set a limit of calories for myself: not more than 800 a day. That’s how much a person of my weight and height needed to eat to lose weight, according to the formula on the Internet.
I started doing physical exercise. Now I understand that this is the only good thing I did for myself then. I rocked the press, ran up the stairs to the 12th floor.
Of course, such a lifestyle quickly began to affect my body. Weight began to fall. 47, 46, 45 – it seemed to me that with every weight I lost, I became more beautiful.
Weight loss can be compared with drugs: if you embark on this path, then stop then almost impossible. Sighs close friends you will soon completely disappear just spur. It seems that everyone around you envy you, who managed to lose weight.
Over time, I refused to eat after 4. Occasionally she spoiled herself with kefir or yogurt. 43, 42 kg – I could not find myself clothes in regular stores. She sewed new jeans, bought sports pants. She managed to buy herself a summer sundress, which her friend later called a cover for stones.
People on the streets began to look at me strangely. It seemed to me that I was still too full.
The body has a certain threshold: first, the weight decreases gradually, but when it reaches a certain point it just flies away. I do not remember how I lost weight before the 37th. I only know that the last 3-4 kilograms left literally in 10 days.
Close cried when they saw me. Parents insisted on the hospital, but anorexic people are crazy, nervous. I could easily shout at mom and dad at the mention of the word doctor. I also spoke with friends who began to move away from me.
One summer I caught a cold. Just a couple of days I was picked up by an ambulance with a temperature below 40 and failing kidneys. A weak body could not cope with the disease, and now I have kidney problems for life. But, having left the hospital, I realized something. I realized that I have every chance of dying if I continue in the same spirit.
I don’t know how it clicked in my head, but I began to gradually force myself to eat. I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that I could count all my bones, that my hair got out of a lack of vitamins, and once a good memory refuses to work for me. Monthly I have not had almost a year.
Thanks to the help and support of my relatives and friends, I managed to recover only after 2 years. I could not get more than 46 kg. Not because the organism refused, but because the fix idea still sits in me. True, now I have a restriction: I should not weigh less than 46 kilograms.
Based on my deplorable experience, I want to say: girls, girls, women! Be careful with diets. Do not strive to lose weight much. Love yourself as you are. Then, no matter how much you weigh, men will still carry you in their arms.
Dear Moms! Frequently remind your daughters how beautiful, slim and charming they are. Never give them the example of other girls, let them feel perfect, so that the thoughts of losing weight do not come to their heads. The reality of being too slim is too harsh.